Friday, October 9, 2009


A few weeks ago I signed up for a Pilates class at the place where I exercise. Somewhere along the way it got changed to something called Pilates "Fusion". Pilates on Tuesdays, yoga on Thursdays. I did not want yoga...I signed up for Pilates. Now there is a very tender spot in my back from all the weird twists and turns from the yoga class. You want me to do what???

The instructor was telling us what to do as we did it, without the benefit of watching her first. Do you know how hard it is to watch someone while trying to maintain the downward facing dog pose? When it came to the yoga style push up I pretty much said no, I can't do it. I eventually tried and did manage to get a little way down. I don't know if I'm going back because I can't afford to hurt my back right now. I think I will take a Pilates class somewhere else.

I've been trying to keep consistent with my stitching, but there were a few days this week that I didn't pick up a needle. That's OK, I'm making progress on Bitter Flower and looking forward to the next project and maybe an ornie or two.

I gave up one of my responsibilities at work this week. I made a mistake (not a big one in my eyes but it made a few people unhappy) and the criticism that followed put me in a funk. I don't like to be a quitter, but my goal right now in life is to focus on family and home and finding peace in life...I don't need the stress. Retail is very stressful right now. They have us doing multiple tasks at one time and at the same time maintaining that ever cheerful and helpful demeanor. I can do that most of the time but when I have to work 6-7 hours without getting a break, that kind of puts me over the edge.

I have always felt very insecure in my working life. Even being well educated doesn't always prepare one for the real world environment. I never have felt worthy enough to go back to a job in science and therefore have taken the jobs that are the easiest to come by. Low pay and not much satisfaction.

Thank God for my dear husband, who has stood by me through all my ups and downs and has been in the same job for 30 years. I know he itches to retire but is sticking with it until our kids are out of college (unless we win the lottery!). He never complains, even when it's 90 degrees outside and he is working 7 days a week. A good man.

Thanks for stopping by!


silversara said...

Just got your name from a dear friend, Mainlystitching. I am in the same city but don't have a blog. My e-mail is Hoping to hear from you.

mainely stitching said...

Yoga is great, but you need an instructor who's willing to take the time to help new yogees ;) learn the poses without getting hurt. If your instructor isn't willing to do that, you're not going to enjoy the class.

Sorry to hear of your work woes. I used to do retail work and it just drained me!!!

Carol said...

Sounds like a difficult week for you, Barb... Hope things work out for both the job and the exercise. Nothing like the support of a good man, is there? Thinking of you :)

Karoline said...

Hope your back feels better soon. Your yoga instructor doesn't sound very good to me.

Suzie said...

Barb, you're not a quitter, but a wise woman who is refocusing her energies into areas that are more important to her.

It's too bad that you can't find a job that fits your interests, and not just something that you do, to earn money. I've been that route myself, and know just how empty and unfulfilling it can be!

It sounds like you are keeping your wits about you though, seeking out avenues that will bring a balance to the stresses that you endure during your work day.

As for your exercise class, I'd let someone of authority know how unhappy you are with the change of arrangments for the class that you had originally signed up for, and your disappointment in the style of the instructor. Perhaps they will give you some sort of refund or credit towards another session.

I hope that the stars soon align in your favor, and that you start feeling the peace and serenity that you desire.

Know that you have friends here, to support you!

Jeanne - WillowTreeStitcher said...

Work is a drag in my opinion - I know there are those in the minority who actually LIKE their jobs but for me it's just a paycheck. I can't believe some of the things we have to put up with at my workplace these days. However, my DH has been out of work for 6 months so I have to be thankful I have it. Someday years from now I hope to be able to say "goodbye tension, hello pension!"